I Soothe Myself

Lyrics

[Intro]

[Verse 1]
Little bronze bell, worn from years in Jon's hands,
Born June 5, 1944, he rang you at dawn,
In that basement room, 1980s haze,
Surrounded by old IV stands and flickering lights.
Your tone cuts through the hum of the faulty air unit,
A anchor in the chaos, pulling me back.
I hold you now, at 6:15 AM, light filtering in,
68 degrees wrapping around like a wool blanket.

[Chorus]
I soothe myself with your single note,
Lavender in the air, chamomile steam rising.
You can't stop the waves, Jon said,
But with you, I learn to surf the neural tide.
Hand over heart, breath in, breath out,
Regulating the storm inside.

[Verse 2]
Your surface, etched with sessions past,
That single mother with her chronic ache,
The veteran lost in flashbacks, unnamed voices.
I strike you gently, the vibration travels,
Through my palm, up the arm, to the prefrontal calm.
No more cortisol flood, just this resonance,
Echoing in the quiet room, hardwood under cushion.

[Bridge]
In the infinite now, your sound fades into view,
A gesture of compassion, self to self,
No fight, no flight, just presence.

[Chorus]
I soothe myself with your single note,
Lavender in the air, chamomile steam rising.
You can't stop the waves, Jon said,
But with you, I learn to surf the neural tide.
Hand over heart, breath in, breath out,
Regulating the storm inside.

[Outro]