What I Was Afraid Of · Track 22 · middle
Sarissa
Sarissa — Macedonian pike of Alexander’s phalanx. Register: ancient. This song is sung BY this weapon, in first person, about the one thing IT was afraid of. Find the fear that is true of this specific object, not a generic one.
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Lyrics
I am awkward to carry. I catch in the brush. I require both hands and a terrible patience. 18 feet of cornel wood, stripped of the bark. Too heavy to swing as the old heroes tried. I am not for the duel, I am not for the dark, I am built for the crush where the bodies collide. You rest my weight on the shoulder ahead, 5 rows of iron jutting out in the glare. As long as we push in this unified tread, I am the lord of the field. But do not let me be singular. Do not let the line break and the panic begin. A sword can be a savior, an axe is a friend, but I am only teeth when I am part of the jaw. If the man to your left meets a sudden end, I am nothing but timber, heavy and slow. Do not let me be one. Your nervous system stretches down the length of my spine. You feel the wind shifting 5 yards ahead. We are locked in the grid, we are keeping the time, waiting for the dust to surrender the dead. The bronze butt-spike anchors the dirt at your heel, 14 spans from the counterweight up to your palm. You sweat on the wood, I vibrate with the steel, praying the formation stays calm. But do not let me be singular. Do not let the line break and the panic begin. A sword can be a savior, an axe is a friend, but I am only teeth when I am part of the jaw. If the man to your left meets a sudden end, I am nothing but timber, heavy and slow. Do not let me be one. Because when the push comes, and the shields lock tight, and the boy on your right takes a spear in the throat... The gap opens up like a tear in the night. The phalanx is sinking, and I am the boat. I cannot pivot. I cannot defend. I am too long for rescue. I take too long to bend. Close the gap. Step into his blood and close the gap. I am a wall. I am a monster. But only if they stand beside you. Hold the line. Do not let me be one.