What I Was Afraid Of · Track 33 · middle
Brown Bess musket
Brown Bess musket — British flintlock of the 18th–19th centuries. Register: gunpowder. This song is sung BY this weapon, in first person, about the one thing IT was afraid of. Find the fear that is true of this specific object, not a generic one.
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Lyrics
[Intro] [Verse 1] You hung me up above the mantelpiece Ten and a half pounds of walnut and iron You polish the brass till the centuries cease And tell your guests I was the king’s own lion You aim me at the window, sighting down the barrel Squinting like a hunter in the light Your shoulder flinches backward just before the hammer falls Bracing for a kick that won't arrive tonight [Chorus] But don't ask me to pick a single man Don't make me look a target in the face I was never built to understand The quiet arithmetic of empty space I need the smoke, I need the drum, I need the blinding line Where killing isn’t murder, just a chore My only terror is this solitary crime A seventy-one ball in a seventy-five bore Bouncing in the dark. [Verse 2] I have no grooves to make the bullet spin I am a smooth and unrepentant throat Since 1722 we stood in rows of fifty, breathing in The sulfur from a bitten paper coat If you fired me alone across a grassy open field I’d wander to the left or catch the breeze I relied on my brothers to make the column yield To bring a singing empire to its knees [Chorus] So don't ask me to pick a single man Don't make me look a target in the face I was never built to understand The quiet arithmetic of empty space I need the smoke, I need the drum, I need the blinding line Where killing isn’t murder, just a chore My only terror is this solitary crime A seventy-one ball in a seventy-five bore Bouncing in the dark. [Bridge] You think I am an instrument of will A surgeon’s blade that cuts exactly where you point I was a bludgeon made to vomit and to spill Until the fog of war unhinged the joint I never knew who fell. I only knew the roar. [Guitar Solo] [Outro] Take me off the wall. Put me in a crowd. I cannot bear the silence of this room. If I have to be a weapon, make it loud. I don't know how to shoot without the gloom. I don't know how to choose just one. Just one.