Odes to Joy

What I Was Afraid Of · Track 40 · middle

RPG-7

RPG-7 — Ubiquitous rocket-propelled grenade launcher. Register: modern. This song is sung BY this weapon, in first person, about the one thing IT was afraid of. Find the fear that is true of this specific object, not a generic one.

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Lyrics

[Intro]
You unroll me from the carpet in the truck bed.

[Verse 1]
I smell like old canvas, cosmoline, chalk
The wood of my heat-shield is starting to rot
Your collarbone shakes where you balance my pipe
You’re seventeen, maybe. Not exactly the type
You traded a dirt-bike to bring me up here
To sit in the weeds till the giants appear.

[Chorus]
This is what terrifies me in the cold
Not the fire I carry, not the shape of the mold
But how cheap I have made it to shatter a crown
How casually I pull a miracle down
No ritual, no radar, no sacred decree
Just a kid in a jacket, pointing me.

[Verse 2]
Tuck your elbow in tight, let your breathing go slow
Your shoulder forgets it is muscle and bone
It locks like a tripod, it gives up the ghost
While you line up the crosshairs on what matters most
Clear out the backblast, make sure it’s just air
Or you’ll burn up the brother who’s crouching right there

I leave the tube blind, no wires or strings
At 11 meters, the sustainer ignites, and I sing.

[Chorus]
This is what terrifies me in the cold
Not the fire I carry, not the shape of the mold
But how cheap I have made it to shatter a crown
How casually I pull a miracle down
No ritual, no radar, no sacred decree
Just a kid in a jacket, pointing me.

[Bridge]
Ten million dollars of composite steel
A computer that thinks, a mechanized wheel
And I am just plumbing, stamped out in a shed
A cheap metal funnel to deliver the lead
The arithmetic makes me sick to my stomach
The sheer disrespect of the math.

[Outro]

Squeeze.
I am gone in a flash of white heat.
And you are left holding an empty green drainpipe
While the titan bleeds out in the street.
Toss me in the dirt.

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