What I Was Afraid Of · Track 43 · middle
Durandal
Durandal — Roland’s sword (*Song of Roland*). Register: fiction. This song is sung BY this weapon, in first person, about the one thing IT was afraid of. Find the fear that is true of this specific object, not a generic one.
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Lyrics
[Intro] [Verse 1] A tooth, a drop of blood, a strand of hair, a thread of dress. Sealed up inside my golden pommel to keep me blessed. They built me holy, they built me cold. They gave me a name that meant I could never fold. For 12 years I was the end of his wrist, Deciding before the muscle even twitched. We swept the valleys, we cleared the pass, Until the horn blew too late in the bloody grass. [Chorus] So strike me against the marble, Roland. Bring me down with all the breath you have left. I am terrified of the open hand. I am terrified of the theft. You want me to shatter so I cannot be claimed. But I was made too well. The mountain is only stone. [Verse 2] He is weeping. His temples are burst and red. He drags my edge across the heavy granite. I want to die with him. I want to split my head. I want to snap at the hilt and finally end it. But the marble gives way. The cliff face cracks in two. I am ringing in the air, totally untouched and bright. I failed the one thing he begged me to do. I could not break for him in the fading light. [Chorus] So strike me against the marble, Roland. Bring me down with all the breath you have left. I am terrified of the open hand. I am terrified of the theft. You want me to shatter so I cannot be claimed. But I was made too well. The mountain is only stone. [Bridge] He lays down on the earth, his face to the southern hills. He hides me beneath his body, a beautiful, useless weight. I am perfectly sharp. I have no blood to spill. The holiest thing about me was the way I learned to hate The angels who forged me so blind. [Outro] He goes cold over top of me. I am trapped in the story, shining in the dirt. Waiting for a hand that isn't his. The stone broke. I didn't. I do not know how to endure this kind of quiet.