What I Was Afraid Of · Track 45 · middle
Zulfiqar
Zulfiqar — Sword of Ali in Islamic tradition. Register: fiction. This song is sung BY this weapon, in first person, about the one thing IT was afraid of. Find the fear that is true of this specific object, not a generic one.
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Lyrics
[Intro] [Verse 1] They paint me with a serpent's tongue, a clean and holy line dividing the dark. They trace my shape in gold when the songs are sung, and forget the desperate, ordinary mark. I was an instrument of unpolished iron, not a metaphor, not a breath in a prayer. I was a lever of gravity and bone, and I knew the grip of the one hand that was fair. [Chorus] There is no sword like me, they say. But steel is blind and steel is dumb. My terror is the relic's display, and the waiting for a lesser hand to come. If I am the scale that weighs the right and wrong, if I am the blade that makes the judgment true, what happens when a mortal man picks up the song? What happens when a tyrant swings me through? [Verse 2] I remember the valley at Uhud, the heat in the dust. The way his palm knew my balance before the mind gave the word. A current moving through the wrist, a perfect trust, the quietest sorrow that the sky had ever heard. Now I am a shape they cast in silver for their necks. A charm to keep the shadows from the door. They love the twin sharp points, the absolute effects, but they do not want the burden of the war. [Chorus] There is no sword like me, they say. But steel is blind and steel is dumb. My terror is the relic's display, and the waiting for a lesser hand to come. If I am the scale that weighs the right and wrong, if I am the blade that makes the judgment true, what happens when a mortal man picks up the song? What happens when a tyrant swings me through? [Bridge] The cleft at my tip is exactly three inches deep. It catches the opposing blade, it binds the wrist. It was never meant to be a secret they could keep, a myth of righteous anger in the mist. I am afraid of being drawn in the wrong name. I am afraid of making murder look like grace. [Outro] I rest in the velvet, holding the blame. Waiting for a shadow to cross this place. There is no hero. There is only the hand. And the hand is gone.