Odes to Joy

What I Was Afraid Of · Track 64 · middle

Portal Gun

Portal Gun — *Portal*. Register: fiction. This song is sung BY this weapon, in first person, about the one thing IT was afraid of. Find the fear that is true of this specific object, not a generic one.

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Lyrics

[Intro]
I am cold polymer and a captive star.

[Verse 1]
They mounted me on a sterile pedestal,
waiting for a hand to slip inside the casing.
You map the geometry before you step,
your visual cortex quietly erasing
the concept of a dead end.
I click. The three prongs flare.
A tear in the room, suspended in the dark.

[Chorus]
They call me a gun, but I carry no lead,
I just fold the distance from your feet to the edge.
Blue for the entrance, orange for the floor,
I am nothing but a sudden, violent door.
And this is what keeps the humming in my shell awake:
I can bend the room, but I can't keep you safe.

[Verse 2]
Speed goes in, speed comes out. That is the rule.
I watch your boots cross the threshold of the room.
I don't pull a trigger. I don't deal in blood.
I just send you plunging past the metal and the rust.
If you miss the white panel by a fraction of an inch...

I am just the bridge. You are the one who has to flinch.

[Chorus]
They call me a gun, but I carry no lead,
I just fold the distance from your feet to the edge.
Blue for the entrance, orange for the floor,
I am nothing but a sudden, violent door.
And this is what keeps the humming in my shell awake:
I can bend the room, but I can't keep you safe.

[Bridge]
I am the pacifist in the testing maze,
offering a shortcut through the impossible phase.
But as you drop into the loop, falling faster than sound,
I am terrified I will never give you back to the ground.
Terminal velocity is fifty-three meters a second.

[Outro]
You are falling.
I am glowing in your grip.
Blue to orange. Orange to blue.
I never end the sentence for you.
Just another hole.

Just another.
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