Odes to Joy

What I Was Afraid Of · Track 74 · middle

Phaser

Phaser — *Star Trek*. Register: fiction. This song is sung BY this weapon, in first person, about the one thing IT was afraid of. Find the fear that is true of this specific object, not a generic one.

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Lyrics

I rest on your hip in a seamless mold
You call yourself a seeker of the truth
I don't use a firing pin, I don't run cold
I leave no shrapnel, and I leave no proof
Just a beam of color to let you keep your pride
And let you walk away without a sound
I am the civilized answer by your side
I am the ghost that puts them in the ground

That is what terrifies me in the case
I am the weapon that keeps your conscience clean
I leave no ruin, I leave no messy trace
Just empty air where a breathing thing had been
I make the end of the world feel so polite

The setting dial travels exactly 3 millimeters across
From a heavy slumber to nothing left at all
Your thumb finds the groove before your mind weighs the loss
It takes such a gentle pressure to make the giant fall
I am made of plastic and a concentrated star
But you treat me like a universal key
Unlocking the obstacle, no matter what they are
As long as you don't have to watch them bleed

That is what terrifies me in the case
I am the weapon that keeps your conscience clean
I leave no ruin, I leave no messy trace
Just empty air where a breathing thing had been
I make the end of the world feel so polite

There is no recoil to rattle your shoulder
No sulfur or smoke to sting in your eye
You get to remain the benevolent explorer
While I make the difficult argument die
It is too easy to push the little slider up
When the violence looks exactly like a dream
You pour the shadow from a pristine cup
And you never have to hear the target scream

That is what terrifies me in the case
I am the weapon that keeps your conscience clean
I leave no ruin, I leave no messy trace
Just empty air where a breathing thing had been
I make the end of the world feel so polite

Check the dial
Check the little glowing light before you draw
Am I the shepherd today
Or am I the silence
Pick a song