What I Was Afraid Of · Track 83 · middle
Trebuchet
Trebuchet — Medieval counterweight siege engine. Register: ancient. This song is sung BY this weapon, in first person, about the one thing IT was afraid of. Find the fear that is true of this specific object, not a generic one.
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Lyrics
They dragged me green from the northern ridge, Cut me square in the autumn rain. I am fifty beams of weeping oak, A captive ghost of the timber plain. They fill the box with the river rock, Fourteen tons of earth to pull the sky. I hold the murder in my spine, And wait to let the limestone fly. I do not fear the arrow, I do not fear the rot. I do not fear the tension in the knot. I watch the fortress in the dust and the haze, And I fear the end of my working days. A sword goes home when the blood is dry, But I am too heavy to bring inside. When the great wall breaches and the mortar gives, That is the exact moment I cease to live. I do not aim. I only obey the arc. I throw the geometry into the dark. The men at the winch, they hold their breath, Stepping back from the timber's edge. Their bodies know the radius before the mind decides, A holy terror if the iron pin slides. I smell of tallow and uncured skin, Waiting for the crumbling to begin. I do not fear the arrow, I do not fear the rot. I do not fear the tension in the knot. I watch the fortress in the dust and the haze, And I fear the end of my working days. A sword goes home when the blood is dry, But I am too heavy to bring inside. When the great wall breaches and the mortar gives, That is the exact moment I cease to live. The sling whips over, the payload clears. The valley is split by a thousand cheers. I watch the parapet crack and bow. It is over. I am just firewood now. They leave me standing in the mud. They draw their iron. They go to blood. The ropes go slack. The counterweight is still. Just a wooden skeleton on a silent hill. I was a god for a week. Now the moss can have me.