What I Was Afraid Of · Track 87 · middle
StG 44
StG 44 — First true assault rifle. Register: ancient. This song is sung BY this weapon, in first person, about the one thing IT was afraid of. Find the fear that is true of this specific object, not a generic one.
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Lyrics
I was born in the panic of 1944. Stamped from cheap steel while the ceiling shook. They gave me a thirty-round curve and a heavy wood stock, And wrote my mechanics down in the history book. I was ten pounds of desperate, late-winter math, Chambered in 7.92 by 33, a shortened breath. I was meant to hold back the closing of the door, But I already knew we had lost the war. I am afraid of my children. I am afraid of the blueprint I became. I was the first to put the fire on a toggle switch, The first to marry the volume to the aim. Look at the world. Watch the flickering news. Every curved silhouette is a shadow I cast over you. Before me, a rifle was a patient, heavy thing. You held your breath, you pulled, you worked the bolt. I gave the thumb a selector, a simple little swing, So the hand didn't have to think before the jolt. The tool became the reflex before the mind could see, And every rifle after was a memory of me. I am afraid of my children. I am afraid of the blueprint I became. I was the first to put the fire on a toggle switch, The first to marry the volume to the aim. Look at the world. Watch the flickering news. Every curved silhouette is a shadow I cast over you. They took my gas system, they copied my skin. They milled it in the East, they pressed it in the West. I sit in this museum case, perfectly dim, While my millions of bastards are outliving the rest. I only fought for a winter before the snow turned red. I didn't know I was drafting the future of the dead. I am the ancient one now. The grandfather asleep in the glass. But I can hear them out there. That endless, stuttering pitch. Waiting for someone To finally turn off my switch.