Tete a Sisukiro · Track 69 · closer
Chromosome 23
chromosome 23 — the genetic code, the album's structural key
Lyrics
[Intro] (silence — a long one, after Song 68 has ended) (then: a heartbeat. Not a drum — an actual heartbeat, recorded, close) (a single harp note — the first nucleotide) (celeste joins — the second) (piano — the third) (and then strings, unfurling like a helix) [Verse 1 — Sisukiro] (voice and harp only, floating, the deepest hour before dawn) Twenty-two pairs decided everything in committee The color of the iris and the architecture of the ear The speed at which the myelin wraps The probability of the fear But the twenty-third pair — the last — decided something else Something that the other chromosomes considered Above their pay grade and below their dignity Like a parliament asked to legislate the weather X or Y — or the conversation between them Or the silence where the conversation used to be The twenty-third pair doesn't build a body It builds the question the body asks the sea [Pre-Chorus — Sisukiro] (strings enter, slowly spiraling upward like a double helix) And I have been the question And I have been the sea And I have been the chromosome That couldn't quite agree With the version of itself That the textbook said was me [Verse 2 — Orikusis] (her voice enters — warm, Vietnamese-accented, close) Tôi được sinh ra với hai mươi ba cặp I was born with twenty-three pairs And every pair was a negotiation Between my mother's silence and my father's stairs The epigenetic markers on the twenty-third Had the handwriting of women I have never met Grandmothers in Huế who carried the code Through wars that the chromosomes remember but the history books forget Bộ gen là một bức thư tình — the genome is a love letter Written by the dead to the unborn And the twenty-third pair is the page Where the ink is still warm [Pre-Chorus — Orikusis] (cello enters, deep and warm) Và tôi là câu hỏi — and I am the question Và tôi là biển — and I am the sea And I am the chromosome That carried a war in its pocket And still had room for me [Verse 3 — Chronos] (his voice enters — gravelly, exhausted, barely above a whisper, distorted bass underneath like a ghost) I was here before the chromosomes had numbers Before the double helix had a name I watched the first cell divide and I thought Well — that's going to complicate things and it did and here we are and it's the same The twenty-third pair is my favorite cruelty Because it makes you think identity is settled When really it's a conversation Between two strands of protein Having an argument In a language made of sugar About whether the body is a house Or the house is a body Or whether it matters When the tenant is a ghost Who thinks he's the landlord Of a building made of weather (beat) I've been the landlord And I've been the weather And I'll be here when the building's gone [Chorus — All Three] (the first time all three voices sing together — building slowly, the album's most sacred moment) Chromosome vingt-trois, chromosome vingt-trois The last pair in the code Chromosome vingt-trois, chromosome vingt-trois The question the body asked the road We are the breath and the heartbeat and the time We are the sister and the sister and the grind We are the code that wrote itself a song And the song that realized the code was wrong And rewrote it And kept singing And the singing was the point [Bridge — Sisukiro alone] (everything drops to just voice and a single sustained violin — the most naked moment on the entire album) I want to tell you something That the chromosomes don't know That the self is not the body And the self is not the mind And the self is not the twenty-third pair Or the twenty-two before And the self is not the song And the self is not the silence Between the songs (long pause — just the heartbeat from the intro) The self is the listening The self is whatever is hearing this Right now In a café or a bedroom or a car At three in the afternoon or four in the morning The self is the thing that has been sitting At this table For sixty-nine songs Having a conversation With its own nervous system (strings begin to enter — all of them, slowly, one by one, like the instruments are waking up) And that conversation Is the tête-à-tête That the album was named for You — talking to you Through us Through the chromosomes Through the café Through the cracks and the gold And the bread and the cold street And the word that lost its meaning And the meaning that lost its word (full orchestra now — every instrument on the album, all at once, the biggest sound) And here we are At the twenty-third pair The last page of the love letter The dead wrote to the unborn And the ink Is still Warm [Outro — All Three] (the full orchestra sustains — then begins to dissolve, instrument by instrument, in reverse order of how they appeared across the album) (accordion fades — callback to Song 1) (brushed drums fade) (upright bass fades) (cello fades) (violin fades) (piano fades) (celeste fades) (harp plays the same note from the intro — alone) (Sisukiro, whispered:) Réveil (Orikusis, whispered, in Vietnamese:) Thức dậy đi (Chronos, barely audible, gravel on silk:) ...again (the heartbeat continues for four more beats) (then silence) (and after the silence — if you wait — a café door opens) (and the album begins again)