The Weight Arrives (Forbidden Love)

Lyrics

[Intro]
Do you remember that room, Abelard?
In Paris. In my uncle's house.

[Verse 1]
The candlelight on the vellum... your hand guiding mine.
You said we were there for philosophy.
And we were.
The beauty of knowledge. The Form of the Good.
But the scent of beeswax and your breath...
The books fell asleep on the shelves.
And our bodies, our bodies woke up.
We were united, you wrote. First in the dwelling,
then in the hearts.
Our own controlled study. Our private world.

[Chorus]
Then the weight arrives.
Not slowly. All at once.
A door kicked open in the soul.
The world found the key we'd lost.
And the word they had for us, "Forbidden,"
it stopped being a word.
It became the air. It became the stone.

[Verse 2]
I wore a nun's habit to Brittany.
A child, our Astrolabe, born in a cold seaside room.
A secret inside a disguise.
And then the letter came.
Not from you.
About the knives in the pre-dawn street.
About what Fulbert paid them to take.
I tasted metal in my mouth, miles away.
I heard the silence where your voice used to be.

[Chorus]
And the weight arrives.
Not slowly. All at once.
A door kicked open in the soul.
The world found the key we'd lost.
And the word they had for us, "Forbidden,"
it stopped being a word.
It became the air. It became the stone.

[Bridge]
Now this cell. This Paraclete.
The only body I touch is the cold stone floor.
The only heat is the ink from my quill.
You send me your Historia Calamitatum.
The story of your misfortunes.
Our misfortunes, Peter.
And I write back.
We are scholars again. Just scholars.
But every letter I write is a memory of that room.
Every word is a ghost.

[Outro]
The weight is here to stay.
In this ink.
On this page.
The weight of your name,
and mine.