Odes to Vices · Track 25 · middle
Mr. Long-Look — At the Gym Mirror, Three Times This Week
The half-second too many. The instinct that catalogs strangers. (*Lust is a noticing he won't admit he noticed.*)
Lyrics
[Intro] [Verse 1] Monday morning, 6:15 at Equinox Downtown. Fluorescent lights buzz over the dumbbell rack. Mr. Long-Look wipes the barbell, eyes catch the mirror. There, Sarah on the stationary bike, ponytail swinging. Half-second too many, catalogs the curve of her calf. Won't admit he noticed, adjusts his grip instead. [Chorus] Lust is a noticing he won't admit he noticed. The gym mirror's silver trap, pulling the glance. Three times this week, the instinct logs another. Warm metal under fingers, but eyes on the reflection. [Verse 2] Wednesday evening, 7:00, locker room doorway steams. Jason towels off, new ink on his shoulder blade. Mr. Long-Look lingers, pretends to check his phone. Half-second catalogs the lines, the sweat-glossed skin. Denies the pull, ties his laces tighter. Mirror witnesses what the mind shelves away. [Bridge] It's the fluorescent hum that knows. The rack of weights, impartial judges. One quiet joke: even the mirror blushes sometimes. But morally, it's unsparing — that extra beat of the heart. [Verse 3] Friday noon, empty treadmill row reflects back. Mr. Long-Look alone now, stares at his own form. Half-second on himself, catalogs the familiar lines. Lust turns inward, unnoticed noticing the self. Won't admit the vanity, grabs the towel and leaves. [Outro] The mirror stays, holding all the glances. Three times, a catalog grows in silence.